The silence in my mind was amazing, the calm was as far as I could reach. I could summon a thought into my otherwise blank workspace, and it would stay there until I was done with it, never being jostled or shoved by unbidden thoughts.
It was lovely.
My neurotypical friends were jazzed about being high; I felt normalcy for the first time.
One time I took an illicitly-offered adderall.
The silence in my mind was amazing, the calm was as far as I could reach. I could summon a thought into my otherwise blank workspace, and it would stay there until I was done with it, never being jostled or shoved by unbidden thoughts.
It was lovely.
My neurotypical friends were jazzed about being high; I felt normalcy for the first time.