I don’t know if it’s related to autism, but I can’t listen to music just like if it was a white noise like most people do, if I play something I get very emotional about it, my mind changes completely and when I stop listening I kind of feel bad and depressed. I wonder if it’s related to autism or some kind of over-stimulation or something. I feel like any music I listen to touches my soul. And that’s not good because sometimes I just want to chill but I get way too attached to the playing song.
So I’m barely listening to music lately because I’m trying to keep my emotional neutral.
I often have a tune in my head (in a good way, not like having baby shark stuck in your head), and the only relief is figuring out the words that go with the tune. So, these are songs I already know, and I’ll listen to that song and songs by the same group, and read the lyrics on genius.com. I’ll listen to more songs by that one group for weeks (sometimes months), and don’t always read the lyrics, just listening or listening while doing something else enjoyable.
Some songs I’ve had to stop listening to either when I figure out the lyrics, or the music video hits me too hard.
Like the song “Take me to church” by Hozier, or the Theme of the Biolizard from Sonic Adventure 2. I cry like nobodies business.
I get far more stimulated by visuals, I’ve noticed.
But it never hurts to rock out to your favorite track to get full of energy!
Yeah, I sometimes commit myself to listening before realizing I’m not in the best place for it. Some things I just can’t listen to at all because it takes me to shitty places.
Why are you trying to not feel anything?
I get way too much emotionally attached to the song and I can’t get things done properly, can’t focus in other things. I prefer to stay neutral, I feel like being on that emotional state can affect my judgement on making rational decisions.
For what it’s worth, there’s no such thing as rational/emotionless decisions. It’s better to be aware of yourself and your own biases than it is to try and cut your emotions off.
Which is very different from being overstimulated / emotional. I personally keep movies/tv to a minimum because of how much it affects me, not to mention the ones that are completely unwatchable because of how much they press my buttons.
I think it’s okay to lower the amount of music you listen to, especially if it becomes too much. Gotta take care of yourself for sure.
A lot of music definitely directly touches my emotions/soul like that, but I’m usually left with bliss rather than depression. But different music triggers different emotions, so it might be that I’ve just found my right genres. Concerts are one of my favorite things to do.
There is some music that just pisses me off like some pop-country music that’s twangy and really stupid, lowbrow lyrics. And a lot of the more angry rap can put me in a bad mood.
Trip-hop, electro-pop, post-rock, dream pop, and a few other genres that are mostly derived from rock and electronica are the ones that work well for me.
And some even goes so far as being able to calm me from meltdowns when it has a fast rhythm, but calming, repetitive lyrics. The fast rhythm is able to catch my fast moving thoughts, and the calm style pulls me down. My go to song for that has always been Plus Profond by Hooverphonic. The refrain is “try not to lose, not to lose control”. Throw on some headphones or blast that in the car or room and block out everything and I’ll usually calm down.
That said, if I’m doing something that requires intense concentration, there is only certain kinds of music I can listen to and it can’t be too loud. Like jazz would drive me nuts in that kind of situation, but in a bar with maybe a couple of drinks in me and spending time with friends, it can be a really fun experience.
Depends. I listen to music I have positive emotional reactions to. I don’t think anything really gives me negative emotional reactions the same way — I would avoid it if it did.
Try Brain.fm
